New Year Targets

It's now year 2012! New year, new targets, with some old targets that not achieved so far.

1.Learn how to DJ and mix songs/tracks

2.Learn how to compose songs

3.Pump CGPA to 3.5+ (A target that will last till 2013)

4.Learn Python

5.Improve Minesweeper W.R, until 3 digits

6.Learn how to do investment

7.Intern in a nice company

8.Finish FF8

9.Finish Half Life

10.Good title for FYP

11.100 pushups

Year end review

During the 1st day of 2011, I have made a few targets/wishes for myself to achieve, here is a review of them, to show which has been achieved, and which is not:
1.Technics RP-DH1200 DJ Headphones (owned by 04-02-2011)

2.Learn how to DJ and mix songs/tracks (still have the passion, but not time)

3.Learn how to make some songs (still have the passion, but not time)

4.Get A (at least A-) in data struct (grade A)

5.Pump CGPA to 3.5+ (still undergoing)

6.Learn Java, C#, Python (learned Java, but not too familiar)

7.Ipoh friends can still have activities together

8.Got lenglui in FICT's new intakes (EPIC FAIL!!)

9.Introduce Ubuntu to more people (failed, maybe I wasn't good enough)

10.Microsoft market share will be decreased (the statistics showed)

11.Improve in Minesweeper's time(hoping to get into world ranking) (current word ranking 1020, country ranking 7)

Well, it is approximately half of the target achieved, I guess I will need to work harder next year.

PS: I think I did make you mad.

Hello World!

It has been a long time since my last update. In the blink of eyes, 7 months had passed. As usual, things and events occured, with various degree of effects, consequences, and even regretness.

Well, I'm not going to brag/drag my life about the pass 7 moonths in this post, might make it another day though. Just come back to say "Hi!".

Well, saw the newspaper today. Everytime when I read those story, they give me a feeling, like a bunch of rich peoples, showing off their assets among each other. The story is about the result of PMR. As usual, each school are counting how many 8As students they have, or 7As, or the total passing rate for each subject.

Makes me feel sick. Because they will forget about the morale of students to some extent, they will forget to finding students talents, they forget how the education should be. How many students with good results, but never use their brain to think? How many more, they don't even have common knowledge?

When will our education stop producing "robots"? I really wonder.....

P.S: Do you dislike me? I don't know. I just tried to get to know you better.

Short peek at my holidays

Having two weeks holidays after 3 weeks of exam. Back to Ipoh, but no time for myself. Seems like holiday, but more tiring than days at Kampar. Here, I can't sleep as much as I want, I can't play as much as I want. Don't have enough time for my own activities like read a few slides, try to learn something new.

This holiday many things happened I guess. Friends started to scattered everywhere, some friends coming to Kampar though. But don't know what lies ahead in front of us. Maybe same problem occurs again.

Relationship seems to be more further apart, in many aspects. Maybe I really not that good in socialising. Many things happened on me, understood more about myself, thanks to a few peoples.

Shall start my promise to watch from distant, silently.

Sorry

I promise you to stalk you no more, I promise not to make you feel uneasy or uncomfortable. Sorry for all the actions that I've done, that intimidates you. Really, this will be the last time. I'm so sorry.

Second chance

Wow, I'm so happy today. Because I get a news, which is I'm debarred from the bar list. A second chance is given to me, so now I can go to have exam without worrying given.

Before this news is out, I have been depressed for whole week long. Healed by friends when went to have fun, but depressed again after back to here.

Heard a news during my stay on hometown, 1 of my senior withdrew from UTAR because he can't cope with the stress. Well, UTAR is stressing us with lots of subjects, we have to be careful and good in stress management.

When hanging out, is sucks when watching 3 pairs of couple playing beside you, and you are the only single there. Well, seeing them happy then I feel happy too, they are my friends after all.

Next semester, and during my break, will be very busy. But hope can achieve some of my target. Don't want to feel like inferior than others anymore. I will learn as hard as I can, just afraid of my own laziness.

Prom night, first time for FICT. But can you guys don't take it so seriously? Yes, it's the first time for FICT having a prom night, BUT it isn't that grand, until whole UTAR have to help you celebrate. And stop comparing our night with others, others had their nightS, they had experience on what to do and how to do, so it make senses if we doesn't do as good as them. Just try to enjoy the feeling of organising the FIRST prom night, damn it.

Felt quite sad when idea is banned, but it's OK, it's not my own prom, isn't? Although it looks different than what I imagined, but I will continue to bring it out to FICTians.

Well, Saturday going UTAR beach party, hope can learn something, and gain something. Maybe it's the first step for me to take forward. Charge! FICT!

PS: Data struct assignment, I can't even help myself, so how can I help you?

Dissapointment

A nice day have been ruined by a call from office. I was told I that I have a 28% absent rate for that subject. I counted, it is 4 times absent??? I was like "WTF?" I only absented 3 times? But now you tell me 4 times? Damn, unbelievable.

Maybe attendance is still counted after bar list? If that so, then I cannot be saved. Well, it really ruins my mood, whole day. Damn it, wasted time and money, and have to come out with new planning. Well, let's see how's the final bar list goes. Damn.

PS: Due to my super bad mood, I hope all people in Kampar also suffer bad mood with me. Best if they all get barred with me.

You asked for it? You deserved it!

This few weeks, has took a peek on the reality. Don't have money? You deserved to get bullied. This fact is known since long time ago, but it's a total different thing when it strikes directly at you. Some people just can become that unethical when is comes to money.

What can I say? What can I do? Scolding? It doesn't bring much benefit. I dislike to scold each other because it doesn't bring benefits to both parties, but it doesn't mean that I won't angry, and just stand there to let you bully. I have my own way, I'm not that kind.

Frequently skip class has finally lead me to another reality, which is already expected, but still hope for different result. Well, I deserve this because I really skipping a lot of class this semester. Just as I thought, I will become lazier and lazier if I don't ride my bike to campus. Funny, eh?

Sometimes not I don't like to help you, but who will like someone that always change their mind? This world is big, and I can't fulfill all of your conditions, and requirements. It doesn't mean that I didn't put my heart it if I can't fulfill it. I tried my best to help you.

Still got 2 years in Kampar, but actually I wish I can graduate faster. Living here doesn't bring any UBER nice memories to me, despite those beautiful scenery of "lakes".

Hoping to getting unbarred. Else, plans will need to adjust, and more time will be wasted. Next semester, no more slacking. Those subjects seems hard, and also interesting. Hope they can lead me to discover more knowledge.

PS: Felt that I'm not that good as I think, and not that knowledgeable in the field that I'm going to enter. The words of Dr. Choo is spinning around my ears.

Forgive my selfishness

Just came back from the mid term test. Things doesn't go well as I expected. Of course, this is the result of not paying attention during lecture. Putting last minute effort is really insufficient.

Not that I don't want to let you copy, but the fact is I don't sure my answer, and some of them even is just guessing. I just don't like to do anything that have uncertainty. Please forgive my selfishness.

Trying to hide myself from the real world, by keep watching anime. Delayed all the tasks, delayed until last minute. What happened? I don't really know. Just that this semester is like tenser? Please forgive my selfishness.

Everyday in Kampar affects my emotion, I wonder why? Too concern? Or because I wanted to be concerned? I know recently I'm not "looking" good, but thanks to bear with me. Thank you for bearing with my selfishness.

Keep drag you to talk when you busy, but not replying you when I busy, please forgive my selfishness.

PS: This semester will perform badly. Will 3As be too high expectation with my effort?

1 more subgenre of trance

Recently, I discovered 1 more sub genre of trance, which is called "Orchestral Uplifting" or "Uplifting Trance with Symphonic Orchestra". This kind of trance have a long emotional breakdown, which makes me feel harmonic, sad, peace, depends on the song type. The build up sometimes very energetic too. Here are some links for example:

Arctic Moon - True Romance (Original Mix)

Andy Blueman - Florescence (Emotional Mix)

Andy Blueman - Neverland (Energetic Mix)

Andy Blueman is one of the "Orchestral Uplifting" producer, his songs all are in high quality, but too bad he's gonna quit the trance making now, which means it will be more good orchestral uplifting if he didn't. Well, I'm putting my eyes on Arctic Moon and SoundLift now, do you have more suggestion?

A long long week

After attempting my assessment for almost 1 week, I'll just leave things as it be. It doesn't work as I expected, it isn't flawless, it have a long long code.

I'm not that good as I thought after all. I can't solve the problem myself without looking at others code after all. I wasted time writing codes that are non-understandable, and even non-readable.

Stress is around for this week or two, even three. 1st moral, then maths, then data structures, then TCP/IP, den maths, then moral and Pengajian Malaysia, then Economics. I hope high for myself, but I think the overall result will disappoint me.

Finding someone that have same interest with you is hard. But still, hope to meet some special persons. Still hoping to be DJ, but clearly not those Club DJ. I'm thinking of Bedroom DJ.

Well, I still can't sleep at this time. I guess I'll just continue to watch "Ah! My Goddess!"

I owned a Technics RP-DH 1200!

My 1st target has achieved, I finally brought myself a Technics RP-DH 1200! It arrived on 23th of January, and hell, it really looks cool. Finally, I get my 1st DJ equipment, a DJ headphone.

The review for it? It is surely tight, very tight, but when I watched some Armin's live video, his RP-DH looks looser, how can he do it? Sound isolation is quite good, I only need to turn volume up ABIT when in some loud environment (tested during lecture, not in club though). It's abit heavy too, but it's an DJ headphone after all. Since it have large power handling, 3500mW, I can even turn it into a tiny "speaker", by turning up volume ALOT.

Some friends very suprised when they heard the price of the headphone, but hey, it's Technics, and it is a DJ headphone, thats why the price is more higher than you thought. And still, I bought it with half price cheaper than in Malaysia, if shipping doesn't count in. And this is my best buy.

Now, I had my headphone, my list wishlist will have to expand a little bit, with turnables and mixers added, because that's a real DJ stuff. Well, I almost forget amps, and speakers. Lets see when I have the money to buy them all. =p

PS: Haven't have a photo with my RP-DH 1200 yet, because I don't have a nice camero for the shot. So you may google the image of it for a few better look.

Turn Away

Happily find someone to chat, when I finally can stop doing other things and concentrate in chatting, But somehow it will eventually turns into a long loop of waiting. At the end, will even get ignored.

Maybe my attitude of mine leads to these situations. Talking lots of nonsense, using lots of bad words, or even talking things that is uninteresting. Even maybe I choose a wrong time to chat, where you have lots of works to do, and chatting with me will occupy your precious time, even 5 minutes.

Thats fine, while I don't want to waste your precious time no more, I'll just stop that initiative. While myself doesn't sound appealing to you, I know there's always other people that will entertain you,

Why should I keep getting the same results that frustrates me over and over? Every time I compare myself to others, and it just makes me more disappointed. If I'm not that valuable for you, thats fine. I rather keep my value for myself.

I can't speak well, I can't tell stories, I can't entertain you, I can't help you, I can't calm you, I can't cook well, I can't sing well, I can't develop a mutual interest with you, I can't be kind hearted as others, I can't be decisive as others, I just screwed all up.

Maybe I'll just stick back to my own principle, which makes me have better feeling. Right now, I'll just turn away from you where I can, I can just continue my own life without your presence.
Since I'm that non-valuable and unnoticeable by you, I guess it doesn't make a difference. But that will be better for me, at least I will have lesser feeling of being ignored.

Life goes on, without you. Maybe you will find the importance of me, maybe I will find the importance of you, and that's the time where we will find each other again.

Ubuntu madness #2

This is my second post for Ubuntu madness, this is an idea that long formed in my mind, that is too reformat the netbook into Ubuntu once I get it. The netbook is a freebie where I signup for TM's Streamyx Unipack. While in UTAR, I saw many people carrying this netbook, which everyone's netbook is almost same, make you thought it as a clone, except the username and password. Since I want some difference, and also to impress people, and also to introduce Ubuntu to others, I want to reformat it. So, I did. The netbook comes with Microsoft Windows 7 Starter Edition, and with a sticker. What I did is, reformat the laptop, and stick a new Ubuntu sticker on it. Bye bye Windows 7 Starter Edition.
















PS: Time frame between reformating my laptop and sticking new sticker is about 3 months.

PS2: Lazy to hack pictures layout, done my best to let them stick together. =p

Ubuntu madness #1

This should be an old post, but too bad I don;t have the time to update at that period, so I'll make a post about it here. Before exam starts, I had done something new, crazy, with satisfaction. I ordered product from Canonical Store (Canonical is the company behind Ubuntu). I came through various products, and I decided to buy some of them( i wanted to buy ALL, but it's GBP).

To place order, I have to create an account. Well, thats easy. And then need to fill in your information like billing address and whatever, Well, thats quite normal. The hard part comes in when you choose your payment. Why hard? Because I don't have Paypal that time, I only have a Debit card, but they give two options of Credit card and Paypal. So i wonders, how on earth I gonna pay with my Debit? Well, after some asking and searching, I proceeded with Credit card option.

But then met a problem, which you need verification from VISA to activate your account. I blindly fill in the particular and damn, get locked. I searched the web and found some people teaching how to activate the account, and how to unlock. So I follow the steps, make a few calls (it's easy procedure that can finish in 1 call, but they hard to get on phone), and unlocked my card. So I go fill in my particulars again, but locked again. I make a few calls again, only to find out 1 field is different. My mother's maiden name is different? I was like "OMGWTFBBQ". But yet still success.

So after place order, is wait for the parcel to arrive. take around 3 days to reach their post office, and another 3 days to process for oversea delivering, around 2 weeks to reach Malaysia, and around 2 days to reach my area. In this process, the UK Royal Mail does provide a tracking number, which can be use to track your parcel, until it sent to overseas. The tracking number does work on their website. But for Malaysia's, the tracking system are failed. But calling them will provide excellent assistance.

So after the thing arrive, open it. Took some picture of it.


That's my order, 2 Ubuntu lanyards(1 orange 1 purple), 1 pack of 3 Ubuntu stickers, bundle of 3 CDs (Ubuntu Desktop Edition, Kubuntu Desktop Edition, Ubuntu Server Edition). You think I'm crazy? I'm going more crazy on next post.

I'm In Love With Trance

Well well, after I bought my Sensonic EP 500, I started addicted to trance. I still remember the 1st trance I heard, which is DJ Mystik - Time To Say Goodbye. But that time I don't know this genre called Trance, I only know the rhythm, the music sounds good, it does bring in emotions and feels as the music change.

Then after I grind o2jam till a certain level, I came across 2 songs, which is A Trip To Heaven, ESPERE(o2 short version), and I saw "Trance" for the 1st time, in the image of A Trip To Heaven. That's the time I know "Trance" for the 1st time. But I didn't start find tracks for it, because I don't have much interest to listen to it. Not I don't like it, but just simply lazy to find some nice tracks.

But after i bought my earphone, I started looking for nice trance tracks, and my friends guided me to Armin van Burren, Paul van Dyk, Tiesto this a few DJs. So i started to grind, and hell, they sounds good, especially Armin which is the No. 1 DJ for 4 consecutive years (2007~2010).

Trance have different sub-genre, such as acid trance, tech-trance, psychedelic trance, goa trance, uplifting trance, progressive trance, vocal trance, and others(please wiki "trance" for details). I personally like uplifting trance, progressive trance, and vocal trance more.

As in my opinion, trance is far more better then the pop. Those songs are so annoying, I don't even know what they sing, but yet they gained so popular? Another reason is they sound alike, don't you feel that all songs now sounds like same? The music structure, the MVs, all have been "formatted". Thats why the pop is getting me bored, and I like trance more.

Well, here's some link to the trance that I like, hope you all get the feeling why I like trance.

Armin van Buuren ft Sharon den Adel - In and Out of Love

Armin van Buuren Feat Jennifer Rene - Fine Without You

Armin van Buuren & DJ Shah Feat. Chris Jones - Going Wrong

Andy Blueman - Florescence(Emotional Mix)

Yamin ft. Marcie - Forward Motion (Original Mix)

Svenson & Gielen ft. Jan Johnston - Beachbreeze

PS: English Pop sucks, their lyrics brings so many negative things, I like J-pop more than English.

PS2: Justin Bieber? A immature kid who pop out to sing a puppy love song. If Tomorrow Never Comes much more better then Baby. Go back and study, dude.

PS3: Vocal trance vs English pop? I vote for vocal trance. Although the lyrics of vocal trance repeats on the same track, but it is far more "hearable" than those nonsense lyrics of English pop.

Hapi New Year

It's 1st of Jan of 2011, which means I'm unofficially 20 now. With the 1st digit changed from "1" to "2", I have a few new wishes, hopes, experiences(from past year), and also new targets.

Since all of them sounds similar to me(in terms of achievable), I'll just blend them altogether, which is my WISHes.Below is some of them:

My Wishlist, Technics RP-DH1200 DJ Headphones. This headphone gets alot of positive reviews, looks cool, sounds good, and some pro DJs are using it, like Armin van Burren. Cost is around RM650, last time saw 1 at ebay selling for $80 only, too bad not US resident.

My Wishes, learn how to DJ and mix songs/tracks(thats why I need that headphone), learn how to make some songs, get A (at least A-) in data struct, pump CGPA to 3.5+, learn Java, C#, Python, Ipoh friends can still have activities together, got lenglui in FICT's new intakes, introduce Ubuntu to more people, Microsoft market share will be decreased, improve in Minesweeper's time (hoping to get into world ranking), and some other things( currently still thinking)

Look back at the top, I have so many wishes, am I too greedy? Yes, indeed. But I hope my greediness can lead me to a way that can learn more things, can share more knowledge with others, and to improve my own attitude, behaviour, and also time management. Next year gonna try a few things, new approaches, hope to see how far can I go, where is my capability.

At last, this will be the saddest year for me, because all Form 6 friends will start split up to different Us, which means we will getting fewer time to spent together. UTAR's holiday is so "special", means I can only meet up with old friends in RARE cases. Well, that is the truth of life. Embrace it, and believe the next time we ever meet, we bring our own stories. I believe, the JM you knew, will still be the same, at least in front of you.

PS:Countdown x 2, damn loud!

自杀的SH

这是一篇旧事重提的post,就是青年A.K.自杀的新闻。当时要准备考试，所以就没在这里发表意见。现在考完试，是时候了。。。

那新闻，街知巷闻。在他眼中，爱情就是他的世界。爱情没了，世界塌了，所以选择这条不归路。人常说：“恋爱大过天”。他忘记了，又“天外有天”这句话。除了恋爱这片天，还有其他的天空，比如家人，事业,朋友等等。他的世界有多大，天空就有多阔。很明显，他的世界很小。

他的自杀，影响深远，但是多数都是负面的。一、随着他的死，一帮脑残视他为偶像，不止开fans pages，还封他为先导罗密欧。二、他姐姐和前女友的心，恐怕会蒙上阴影吧。三、wira的主人真的欲哭无泪啊。

脑残的九十后们，都说他勇敢，敢为情而死。我说这叫懦弱，因为生活下去比跳楼更需要勇气。

他的死无疑是令人惋惜的，最令我惋惜的还是他的才能。素闻他对操作电脑很有心得，还没能够见识到到底多有心得，就挂了。如果真的很高超，那对国家真的是一项损失。

其实，真的非要如此想不开吗？身边就没有能让他有继续生活下去的事物？是真的没有，还是他忽视了？那些想要/说要自杀的朋友，睁大你的眼睛看清楚，在你身边，有很多东西，小至一只蚂蚁（细菌是看不到的），大至一棵树都在为生活，为生命，努力着。

Bug #1 and Ogg

If you are a frequent visitor of my blog, maybe you realize that is 2 new images located at the right hand side. Let me introduce you to the meaning of those picture if you never heard / saw it.

First I would like to introduce you to the Ubuntu's 1st bug, which is saying that Microsoft having the majority of market share while in the same time free software like Ubuntu are restricted(For more details you can click on the image). As mentioned in the bug description, very few local PC shop are pre-installed with free software, while most of them including those non-free software with lots of restrictions. For example? Windows, Microsoft Office trial, whatever Antivrus trial, even whatever games are also trials(not the games pre-installed with Windows itself). Have you ever asked yourself, why you keep using Microsoft while it costs so much? Is it because of the software it supports? Or because you already get used to it, because you use it since you learn how to use computer? Well, the answers lies in your head.

Second thing I want to introduce is Ogg Vorbis, which is an open source audio and video format. Many people doesn't aware that DVD, MP3, Quicktime, Windows Media, Flash are non-free media format(free as in free speech, which means free to distribute, modify). Another thing is that they are probably patented, example Quicktime, which means if you want to use it, probably you will have to pay.

So, I hope you all go and have a peek on these two things, and compare with the current dominant non-free alternatives, don't take it too lightly, because it already affect us for at least 10 years.

Short update before exam starts

I did a mind map of Management Principles, here's the link for it. Topic 7 is omitted because I have no idea how to map it, and Topic 5A and 5B is different from the slides. I made this to see how well this mindmap can help me in study, if you find it useful, please tell me so I will continue doing it.

PS: Credits goes to Ubuntu, kdissert(mindmapping software), and our teacher for the slides.