wat do u think of me..?

recently had been chatting alot wif frends...knew some news of de frends around,n oso other' secrets' unlocked....well,have oso been commenting on the others...i hav thought of many things,many...well,after those chats,i will start to think of: wat will people think of me, comment me behind of me? i'm trying to take gud k to wat to say,n wat to do.....but i easily loose control....mayb my jokes,my speeches,my act, hurting the others but i didnt notice...so can u tell me if any of my act hurts u, or irritate u?n i noe i'm very talkative,n trying to make jokes,cold jokes huh...will dat make u feel like i'm a tin kosong?sum acts of mine looks kiddo, i noe dat well.....but if i don act kiddo for now,for de 'nearly' last chance,m i going to act it when i'm old??sumtimes i try to make jokes,is becoz i wanna bring fun to my frends,i reali like to c when they smiles,especiallycoz of my jokes...i don like to c ppl sad,n duno how to comfort a ppl when sad, n if i realli looks dat immature, yes, i admit dat i'm nt mature enugh,i cant manage my time well,i cant manage my feelings well,likes to c lengluis....but sumtimes, i think i'm mature enugh to noe dis world's face?world is bigger n yet complicater den u think...i'm actuali much more simplier,but yet much more complicater den u think..if u reali doesnt like me,pls tell me directly,u can tell me dat through msn or fone or personalli,but pls don hide it...at least after u tell me, i noe wat m i in ppl's eyes', n change if i can...tell me wat u think abt me...will u??

a confusing blog,with sum thoughts of mine...